Thursday...

Not a whole lot happened today. I didn't even pack any. Well not as of yet. I went and ran an errand and then came home to work on a paper. I did sneak away and go by the Elementary school Kailee will be attending. I thought it might help me deal by actually seeing it. Did the exact opposite. I know it's not about looks or the exterior appearance but man. I'm used to the school's in Rita Ranch which are brand spanking new with awesome play grounds. This school is hidden in the middle of an older un kept sub division. It's older and has over grown shrubs and plants around the school sign. Of course it was during school times so I only took a picture. I definitely didn't want them to think I was some pedophile LOL. I did some research online to try easing my mind as well. Didn't work either. I'm starting to think I need to go speak with someone. I am literally freaking out. There's even a male kindergarten teacher. Big deal so what to most. To me I can't get over my fears. Can't get over so much. Ugh I swear I'm losing my mind... And as if all that wasn't bad enough I have a killer headache and every time I stand I get dizzy. I have no clue what that's about. Hopefully I'm not getting sick with whatever Paul has had for the past few weeks. Tomorrow is story time and I'm hoping to feel better in the morning. I need to get out and focus on something other than this girl of mine and her starting school.