Signing Off

Ok obviously I was behind in posting since I've posted so much today. This is officially the last time. I just took these pictures of the kids and thought they were way too cute not to post. I love night time because the kids are such goofs. Here's Kailee so proud of herself for dragging her bunny suit(winter pj's) out of her drawer and JP looking gansta in his sister's pink hat. Ok well I'm off to clean.

For Sale

No not my kids, although after reading my last blog I can see how you would assume that's what I'm talking about. It's come time for us to get a bigger family vehicle. Why you ask? Well, b/c JP decided to have the longest legs I've ever seen on a 17 month old and well Paul's not exactly the shortest guy either. We had to move Kailee behind me a while back because she just couldn't fit behind Paul when he drove any longer, and now JP is to tall to sit in the middle. Putting him behind Paul isn't an option either, so we're putting the Montero up for sell. It's a bittersweet decision for me as I love my car. I mean sitting on 20's w/ a system for a mommy mobil isn't too shabby. But, I can see how we are really starting to outgrow the Montero. So we'll see if we get any bites and of course go from there. This is just my way of passing time and bordum while the kids sleep.

Blessed

There are some days as a mom to two toddlers where I feel like I am not getting anything done and when I question what did I get myself into. I feel outnumbered and deliberately tested. Both are at the age where independence is playing a big role in their attitudes. It can be quite draining to be honest. The bickering over a certain toy, the crying over spilled milk(literally), the I don't want to or why? The changes in sleep, the lack of sleep, the boredom thanks to the cooling weather, and the joys of having a boy and girl and their differences. I love my kids to death and they mean the world to me, but some times I wonder if I'm cut out for this or if I'm even a good mom. I'm only on month 11 as a stay at mom. Then there are days like today when they look up at me with their big smiles, where they only want to play with each other, the I love yous, kisses and hugs and I know this is what I was meant to be. A mom. A mom who puts her life on hold to raise two beautiful kids, a mom who lives every day just to see those big smiles, hear those I love yous and enjoys watching them grow and play together. I sometimes have to stop and tell myself to enjoy the bad days, because one day they will both be grown up and I'll miss all the bickering, crying, and bad attitude days. I know I'm blessed to have these two kids and I know how truly lucky I have it compared to some moms and their kids. The stuff I deal with is little compared to others. It's days like today where I look up and thank God for all my blessings in life.

Melt my Heart why Don't You

Oh Kailee what a face. You were upset about not getting a lollipop and here's the face you decided to throw at me. Talk about a pitiful face. You're getting really good at making these types of faces when you don't get your way, and boy do they just melt me. I love how even your sad face can make me feel like a horrible mom.