Memories...Nothing more than Memories

OMG I am such a sap. I'm sitting here crying like a baby with huge tears rolling down my cheeks. Why you ask? Is it because of stress? Is it because of all the crappy stuff going on? Maybe because the kids have drove me to a nervous breakdown? Nope. None of the above. I was cleaning up my external since I've been having more computer problems, and came across a ton of videos from when Justin was born and shortly after that somehow didn't make it into the Justin folder. So here I am watching everyone of them when in walks the kids. I get an immediate "Mommy are you ok? Why are you crying?" That of course from Kailee. Followed by a "Mommies crying. Oh man." From Justin. So I had to try explaining that yes it looked like I was crying but that I was fine. Of course neither of them understood exactly how I could be so happy yet be crying at the same time. I then pulled both of the kids up onto my lap and re watched every single one of the stray ones I was moving w/them. Kailee remembered every single one of those as if they were recorded yesterday and could not get over saying how sweet, look how cute he is, oh my sweet baby brother. She did give a few wow I was so pretty and such a good singer LOL And, Justin's reaction... Well it wasn't quite as positive. He was super upset that he was a baby and when one of us would say look Justin you were a baby he would get mad and say NO I'm a big boy! LOL Not a whole lot besides size has changed between the two of them. Kailee still acts like Justin is her baby and she's his mommy. She's still always one of the first to go running if he gets hurt or to see if hes ok. Justin still looks at Kailee as if she's the most amazing person, and still follows her around. She can still get him to quit crying the fastest and still gets the most reactions from him. Yes they argue and have the occasional argument, but for the most part they are still so close and are definitely each others best friends.
I had that once with one of my brothers. Where we were always together and super close. I just hope their bond stays the same and never changes. Unlike me, Kailee will never have another brother to build a bond with. This is her only one. Well, unless Paul sees the videos of JP as a baby and decides he wants another. Hint hint ;) Just kidding babe!

Snotty kisses and Cards

Oh how I love waking up to Kailee in bed with me after her sneaking in during the wee early morning hours. She must have snuck in around 5am because I know I didn't fall asleep until about 4. Either way I loved it. Then there's nothing better than waking up to good morning and snotty filled kisses from Justin. I just love when he comes in the room and crawls in bed after he wakes up and gives me big kisses and says good morning momma. Too bad these kisses were snot filled but I still loved them. :) Nothing like waking up to two beautiful kiddos to put your life in perspective. I am slowly working on getting out of my bad, depressed mood. I know I'm blessed beyond blessed and all the negative things happening are the devil trying to break my bond with the Lord. Too bad he doesn't know my faith is stronger than anything he can put me through. So take that devil. You will never bring me to your side for my God will always bring me through anything you try sending me way. This morning has been a typical good morning. The kids woke up with horrible coughs. And by horrible I mean an uncontrollable cough. Despite their coughing both woke up wanting to make cards, so that's what they are doing. Singing and dancing to Yo Gabba Gabba and making homemade cards for family members. Kailee also changed the Santa to 19 days until he comes. Lets see what the rest of today brings.