3rd Times a Charm

Grrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I swear we are cursed. After spending an amazing Thanksgiving holiday with our family Paul and I are relaxing on the couch discussing the fun we had while listening to the kids play, when he gets a text. I knew from his reaction it wasn't good news and why I didn't put two ad two together I don't know. Our buyers walked...Again. So three time in one month we have gone through this. This time we knew it was a sure deal. It was an investor who was already aware of the condition of the foundation and knew what a deal he was getting. I don't know why these people feel the need to mess with us. I just do not get it. I have no hope in selling this house. It will be the end of our sanity. An endless money pit. We are now preparing to fix the foundation. How you ask, by selling our camper trailer. Yup yippee for us. I know it's just a material item and we can always get another one, but I find myself super sad. The kids LOVE camping. We love camping. As a matter of fact Kailee's had her bag packed for two weeks now and asks every other day when we are going camping again. I am beyond bummed, beyond sad, angry, frustrated, and lost. Lost as to what to do. At my breaking point. Lost all hope. Tired of getting the run around and being jerked around. Tired of people playing with our emotions. Just tired. It's hard for me to concentrate, hard to put on the happy face for the kids, hard to get through the day. I just want to crawl under the blankets and sleep forever. UGH...

Paul unlike me has moved forward. He's pissed don't get me wrong, but he's been great with the kids. He pulled the tree out like we planned despite me already changing my mind and wanting anything to do with it. He put it up, plugged it in and let the kids enjoy it the rest of the night. He played with them the majority of the rest of today. Do I feel bad of course I do, but I can't help it. I'm depressed and mad and I just can't help the mood I'm in. I just cannot be the positive one any longer and keep believing everything will work out. I just do not feel it anymore. Well I'm off. Going to hide under my blankets.