Lights and Bulbs

Despite my grumpy depressed mood, the kids put the bulbs on the Christmas tree. Paul took the tree out yesterday and so it was already up waiting to be decorated. I cannot muster the energy or joy to have anything to do with decorating. I found myself laying on the floor covered up in a warm blanket staring off into space as Kailee and Justin hung the ornaments. Kailee put the star on top and each of the kids got to put an ornament or two on the very top thanks to a shoulder ride by Paul. I wouldn't have made it through the day without Paul today. He made the kids lunch and even made him and I some lunch. It's normally something I look forward to doing, but not today. After the news yesterday I am in such a depressed funk that I just can't shake. Bad timing I know, but I just can't shake it. I normally remain positive and yet find myself struggling to come up with anything to be positive about...