My Pondering Thoughts: A Little Sappy Today

I've said it before and I'll say it again. I am truly blessed. I have a wonderful husband, absolutely amazing kids, and the best family and friends I could ask for. It's days like today when I wake up and sometimes just have to step back and remind myself that all the little stressors, hard times, and depressing moments, and constant business are all part of a bigger plan and just that...moments that will pass and that shape us as individuals.


On a side note. My husband went out to a friends house just to hang out, drink some beer, and shoot the well you know what. No biggie. We had just gone and had dinner and watched Public Enemies. Which I loved. I mean two full hours of Johnny Depp and gangster type action you cannot go wrong. So what did I care if he went out. Anyways long story short. He went to the grocery store at some point to get beer and what do you know bought me flowers. How thoughtful and sweet. I swear he is the best. And, not because he bought me flowers. That's not the point. But, because he's always doing nice and sweet things just because. Even though he's dealing with a lot at work, testing for Tech on Wed, getting things set up so he can start college, dealing with modifying his car, and just plane stressed out he stopped and thought about me. Sometimes life is so crazy around here and I'm dealing with my own stuff I forget just how lucky I am. So a quick I LOVE YOU to the best husband ever. And of course show off my beautiful flowers. :)


Another awesome thing is I woke up to a good morning from the sweetest little girl ever. I soooo miss my good mornings and I love yous from my baby girl in the mornings, so this was the absolute best way to wake up. My kids are everything to me and I am thankful to the Lord above that he allowed me another day to live on this earth to hear my daughter say such a simple thing as good morning and it bring me more joy and love than anyone can ever know.



Waking up in this overly thankful mood this morning has me wanting to take some time and thank some very important people in my life that I know I don't thank nearly enough.

My mom, dad, brother Chris, and my bestie for life Blue. What can't I say about these four people. Next to my kids and husband they are everything to me. My parents for always loving & supporting me and treating my kids like they are everything to them. They are not only the best parents in the world, my mom being my best friend, my dad being the man I love, look up to and respect the most, but they are the best grandparents. Not b/c of the material processions they give the kids, but because of the continuous love and support they give my kids. Because in a drop of a hat they would come just to see the kids even if for a day. The way they make the kids the center of their world. And take care of them the way I do and never overstep boundaries or do something I would disapprove of. I know I'm a difficult mother for them to deal with b/c of all my rules and guidelines and because they can't spoil the kids rotten and give them whatever they want just because they are their grandparents and yet they enjoy every second with the kids rather by computer, phone or in person. My parents are truly amazing people and I don't have enough space, time, or mind set to lay it out in a better way. I love you mom and dad.

My brother Chris, wow where to start. The only brother I have in my mind. We had our moments where we hated each other and sometimes I still do LOL He has come such a long way and I am beyond proud of him. He has a wonderful job and is going somewhere with himself. I know for sure I don't take the time to say that to him or thank him for being the best uncle ever. He has come such a long way. From not even wanting to hold Kailee until she was a week old b/c she was so little to jumping right in and starting the most amazing relationships with both of my kids. My kids LOVE LOVE their Uncle Chris. He's been there from day one. Always playing with them, holding them, talking to them, spinning them around and around until they can't stand, sneaking them little treats, having little side jokes with Kailee behind my back, teaching the kids some not so mature things but giving us all a laugh out of it, driving across town just to see them, and lately driving from Brownwood after a long day and shift just to spend time with the kids. Staying his days off at the house and just making the kids feel like they are the reason he came and not the fact that he wanted a break from his hotel room. Some might think big deal so what, so he's a good uncle. Well my brother is a single dude, all about work and cars. He doesn't have his own wife or kids. Heck my kids were the first kids he had ever been around. So it's a huge deal to see my brother where he is. It was huge for him to even hold my daughter, wait let me rephrase take off work, spend hours at the hospital knowing he had to go back and work just to be there to see his niece born. And, he didn't just do it with Kailee he was there for Justin too waiting in the hospital just to see them wheel him out so he could say he was there and then turn around and go finish his shift. And now look, he's the prized Uncle. The uncle both kids cannot get enough of and hold the highest. He went from a selfish uncaring single dude to the most caring, loving, best uncle in the world. He knows both the kids moods, likes, dislikes, temperaments, everything about the both of them. Not too bad considering he's just the uncle and not their father. Not too many brothers step up and take the time to really get to know their nieces and nephews. I can say mine has and I'll love the punk forever for it.

Blue. Last on here but definitely not last in my heart. 7 years of endless memories and friendship. You can't beat that. Started off as enemies for typical chick crap to being best friends. Well more really. She's a part of not just me but my family. Everyone knows Blue and her role as best friend, sister, aunt, nanny, maid, painter, re decorator, cook, party planner, you name a role she's stepped into it at some point over the last 7 years. My sanity, my rational side, my religious teacher, brings out the softer less gruff side in me, has molded me to a better more understanding person on a lot of levels. Although people still say I'm the mean one and she's the nice one she really has taught me to not write people off as quickly as I once would. The emotional one as she will tell you. I will say she's the only person who has ever made me mad or sad and still been in my life, friend wise. And she doesn't just mean everything to me, much like Chris, she's everything to my kids. A real Aunt, not by marriage or blood but by pure wanting to be. Been there from day one literally. From being the third to find out I was pregnant with Kailee, to being at the hospital right with my parents, from never leaving my side while at the hospital after my first c-section and anyone who knows the real story behind my c-section with Kailee they know what a huge deal that is. To coming to the house the day we came home just to talk with me. To being there through my whole pregnancy with Justin, from trying to talk me into having her dad do some mexican tradition to tell me what I was having knowing that stuff creeps me out, to being at the hospital after he was born even though I wanted no visitors and just wanted my darn cocktail and sleep, to helping me set up JP's room, heck Kailee's too. Being there for every first. Not missing one. From being Aunt Boo(JP) to being Kailee's favorite. For always being there when Paul was gone just so I wouldn't have to take care of two kids by myself or be alone, to bath time filled with tons of splashed water all directed towards her, to staying home and watching Trading Spaces instead of going out drinking even though it was a Saturday, to traveling to Az just so she wouldn't miss Justin's first birthday, always trying to talk me into letting someone help me with the kids even if it means letting her carry all the groceries in. Much like Chris she knows my kids inside and out, knows me inside and out and even puts up with Paul LOL. The best simply stated. Not many people can ay they have a friend who knows you, the real you and still likes you. I can honestly say that about her. Not many can say their friendship didn't change once they got married and had kids. I can. I could go on and on about this girl but I wouldn't want her to cry all day even though I know she is reading this.

There are many other people in my life that I am thankful for. I have the best in laws. I'm not just saying that because they can read this at any point I'm saying it because it is true. Paul's dad is like my second father and Mariellen like my second mother. They have been there for me during some really difficult times. Paul's mom what can I say. Heck what can't I say. She is awesome. Awesome with the kids, awesome with me even though I married her only son, and just a real person. No fluff, no BS, just real. Given me some really good advice, always grounded me when I had a freak out about something the kids were or weren't doing. I love her for who she is and what she isn't. Barry. Good ol' Barry. Always the same. Has always treated me the same from day one. The loved Poppy to the kids. A wonderful Poppy who the kids just seem to be drawn to. I gained a sister when I married Paul something I never would have imagined. She's a great mom, a wonderful Aunt to my kids, and just someone I look up to in many ways. Her husband is amazing with kids. Amazing. It's like his calling. The most patient man I have ever met when it comes to kids. And, they gave me my first nephew and niece. Jayden and Cami. Another set of great kiddos that distance has stolen a relationship with. I love those two though and can't wait to see them in Nov. I also have two of the cutest nephews ever in Japan. I've only met my youngest nephew Gabriel once and he's a cutie for sure. Spoiled like you wouldn't believe. I'm sure not as much now that he's not an infant but he sure was when I met him. Lucas, has a piece of my heart. The sweetest, smartest, most adorable little boy ever. I just love that little boy. I really hope one day I'll have a relationship with them. The distance hasn't allowed me to get to know them like I wish I could. Paul's grandma Garcia is the sweetest most awesome lady you will ever meet. More like a grandma to me than my own as harsh as that sounds. His other grandma Crosby is amazing as well. Super sweet and great with kids. Well she has a ton of great grand kids and grand kids. Very patient.

Well I'm going to take a break and go get my toes done and come back and finish this oh so very long blog entry and edit the ones from yesterday. Which means more pics and videos to come.



* I'm back from getting my toes done. I have ugly feet but I just love the color I went with. Not only that but they did a deluxe message on my feet and legs which I desperately needed. Now that I'm all relaxed I should be able to get everything caught up as far as the blog goes. Nothing like some relaxation to get the creativity flowing. Hope everyone has a great rest of the weekend. :)

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