Blessed

There are some days as a mom to two toddlers where I feel like I am not getting anything done and when I question what did I get myself into. I feel outnumbered and deliberately tested. Both are at the age where independence is playing a big role in their attitudes. It can be quite draining to be honest. The bickering over a certain toy, the crying over spilled milk(literally), the I don't want to or why? The changes in sleep, the lack of sleep, the boredom thanks to the cooling weather, and the joys of having a boy and girl and their differences. I love my kids to death and they mean the world to me, but some times I wonder if I'm cut out for this or if I'm even a good mom. I'm only on month 11 as a stay at mom. Then there are days like today when they look up at me with their big smiles, where they only want to play with each other, the I love yous, kisses and hugs and I know this is what I was meant to be. A mom. A mom who puts her life on hold to raise two beautiful kids, a mom who lives every day just to see those big smiles, hear those I love yous and enjoys watching them grow and play together. I sometimes have to stop and tell myself to enjoy the bad days, because one day they will both be grown up and I'll miss all the bickering, crying, and bad attitude days. I know I'm blessed to have these two kids and I know how truly lucky I have it compared to some moms and their kids. The stuff I deal with is little compared to others. It's days like today where I look up and thank God for all my blessings in life.